by Barbara Savin
Energy healing is a gift I knew about from an early age, yet only fully explored when my body needed healing physically, emotionally, and spiritually. I grew up in Coney Island in Brooklyn, and my Grandma Jenny would always do healings on my sister and me.
We would sit quietly in a chair and grandma would ask for God’s healing energy for us. She would begin at the top of our head, and in a slow sweeping motion, clear our energy and send it to either God or Mother Earth with love. Then she would lay her hands on our shoulder asking God to keep us healthy and safe. We would always feel heat and/or tingling coming from her hands and my sister and I thought grandma had magical powers. There were occasions where she would burn cloves and clear us with the smoke instead of using her healing hands. I remember grandma always saying to us: “Think positive and trust in God’s healing and always protect your energy. Always put God’s healing light around you to protect you from negativity. Never allow anyone’s words to bring you down. . . allow those words to fall to the ground.” We were never sick and would always say, “Grandma, please stop doing healing so we can get sick and stay home from school!” But she never listened. She just continued to heal and clear us.
It is May 1966, just days away from my graduation from Lafayette High School in Brooklyn. I have been looking forward to this day for years. I am graduating with honors and receiving the Mayor’s Award. I am picturing my Grandma Jenny sitting in the audience. I can imagine the pride on her face as I stand up when my name is called to receive this award. I am so excited; I plan to get a job right after graduation and buy her anything she wants. I love my grandma with all my heart. And then, I find out the worst news of my young life. At two o’clock in the morning, our family receives a phone call telling us that Grandma Jenny has died.
How could this be? She was only sixty-four. She was supposed to be alive to celebrate my most important day, and now she was gone. The news broke my heart; I felt so angry with God. Why did he take this woman who loved me so much? Why did he take her before my important day? My time with her was just beginning. I felt that this was so unfair, and the more I wept for her, the more I lost my faith and trust in God.
About two weeks later, graduation now behind me, I was alone at home when I heard a voice calling out to me. I thought this must be my imagination; only grandma called me “Babasita,” and that’s what I was hearing. I got up from the chair and began walking to the foyer. There, I saw a white cloud and heard again, softly but clearly, “Babasita.”
I said, “Grandma, Grandma, is that you?”
And she replied, “Yes, Babasita, everything is okay. Don’t be so angry, Babasita.” The closer I got to the cloud, the more clearly I could see her.
I became frightened and ran to the phone to call my mother, who was away visiting her brother. Over the phone, my mom told me I was hearing Grandma’s voice because I missed her so much. I was supposed to believe that my grief had created this entire episode. My mom and I never spoke about this again—nor any other “unnatural” experiences I had, including my ability to do healings just like my grandma.
Angry about my grandma’s death, I decided I would no longer do healings and stopped helping two of my close friends who had never made fun of my ability. I simply said to them: “I am sorry but I do not believe in God’s healing anymore.” Also, when I saw spirits or heard a voiceless voice, I would say, “You are not real, go away, and stop speaking to me. Leave me alone.” This, I thought, was my way of punishing God. However, as the years went on, my body began to break down. I was constantly sick, always stressed, working at a job I disliked plus raising two children. One day my niece Stefanie happened to see a flyer mentioning a Reiki healing circle. Neither of us knew what Reiki was, but since we were both in poor shape physically and emotionally, we decided to go to the healing circle in Staten Island.
The atmosphere there was wonderful. Everyone sang songs of love, and it was so calm and peaceful. The practitioners did Reiki work on us, and the feeling was like nothing I had experienced except with my grandma and her healings. I sat and cried and instantly knew that I had to take this up again.
From that moment on, I knew that energy healing was what I needed to do; it felt so natural to me. For the first time I understood the need to help myself heal from within. I remained focused and did self-healings at least twice a day for a month. I could feel changes even though my body pain had gotten worse. I recognized I hated and loved myself at the same time. I was going through a lot spiritually, and I realized I hadn’t forgiven my grandma as thoroughly as I thought I had. I knew I still needed to work on that part of myself. Most importantly, I had to begin loving myself for who I am at my core: a healer.
And while I also knew in my heart that I was a healer, I found it difficult to express that to others. Remember that this was 1960s New York. I recalled how my grandma would always say, “Shush, don’t tell anyone about my healings because they’ll put us away in a crazy hospital.” I knew I had intuitive abilities and was able to feel people’s energies, and I often saw or sensed spirits, but I was so afraid that people would think I was crazy if I talked about it. Meanwhile, my body was crying out for healing and for me to allow my passion and purpose to come forward. This was not an easy task, and I will say that it did not happen overnight. It took time and patience.
Barbara E. Savin is an inspirational author and speaker, Gentle Energy Touch specialist, Clinical Hypnotherapist, Certified Reiki Master/Teacher, and Certified Pranic Healer. In 2007, Barbara became a consultant at California Health & Longevity Institute, located on-site at Four Seasons Hotel Westlake Village and holds the position of Clinical Hypnotherapist and Energy Healing Specialist at CHLI. Barbara provides energy healing sessions, clinical and medical hypnosis for individuals, corporations, groups, celebrities, directors, producers, and guests of R4.0 of The Ranch at Live Oak / Malibu. April of 2016, she will be teaching energy healing at the New York Open Center, New York. Visit her at www.gentleenergytouch.com.